A-T- L-A-S-T-!
the exams are finally over...=) can relax le..lolx..
sumthin weird happen on mi wae home todae.
i was thinking bout smth.
then afternoon went out with rach and datou to plaze sing.. met so many ppl lo..haha..went to carrefour to buy pizza to eat...then we saw ren yao lo... scary like siao..lucky i back facing them..lolx..aftertat we go take neos~! =)
reach hm at bout juz b4 8 to watch the war and beauty..beri beri nice..haha..reaching climax lo..
other shit stuff happen...my head is hurtin like siao..gonna die le..but who the hell give a damm...
promises are signifies the lost of faith.
when faith is present..there is no nid fer a promise or a vow.
even when a promise is broken..it doesnt signify anithing..coz in the first place, the faith is already gone.
promises are signifies the lost of faith.
i m tired. the exams are cumming....it like two more wks. and my results realli suck like hell lo. bloody shit. mi whole clz ish like doing so damm well. yarh. whole clz except me. mayb i m suppose to put in more effort as things are no longer like the past..everi one else is striving hard.working so hard. n here i m. slacking about. but seriously. u cant help feeling shitty went you get back a seriously 21.5/40 when everione else is scoring 30+. i barely pass lo. b-a-r-e-l-y p-a-s-s....wtf.
n todae recieve the exam time table. then we were like " lets highlight the papers we taking!" n GUESS WAD? the entire paper was high lighted. G-R-E-A-T...
n so many stuff happen lo. my head hurts. i m dyin awae. i m so tired. seriously too tired to think.
lol.
who cares aniwae...
u promise me le.
im so mad at myself for not being mad at you.
others kip tellin me your are wron.
n i myself noe it.
but i juz kip siding you.
kip letting you do all these stuff.
each time i prepare a whole lot of stuff to scold u about.
but when i tok to u i juz cant sae those words.
why. wad the hell m i doing..
i m gonna hai si ni.
when will u eva change.
dun juz sae.
actions speak louder than words.
i will hold on to my belief.
but plz.
plz dun let mi down.
plz.
plz.
plz.
coz i care. i still lurve you. even when i aint suppose to.
attlast..! gonna finish the china video le! left the sound n DDDAADDDA~! lolx. haha. man zhu gan~!
lloootas thnx toooo rach n da tou =))
kk. chunqiudameng.i got the li gan le! muahahahaa~! i swear im gonna do this man! ursh~!
ren lei yin wei meng xiang er wei da. mei you meng xiang de ren sheng shi kong xu de.
hmm. gotta find mi destination. wad i reali want.. but sumtimes. its reali nt up to mi to decide ATALL...unless i wana be burenbuyibuxiaobuzhong..tiandaleipibudehaoshi lo.. dots. haix. i have no options. wad dey want me to do muz be rite. muz. so. let mi juz walk to road they path fer me. got i m not mature enuff to see which wae ish betta. i m too young. even after the os i m still too young..
havvda agree. 16 aint 20 but. cant i like try. just try.
although in the first place. i knew very clearly wad i m gonna face in the end. but i gave myself a reason to start.
then when terrible things start happening. i knew very clearly that the ending is gonna be 10 times worst...but i gave myself the reason to continue.
and at last. things finnaly turn bitter when ppl broke the broken hearts. i knew very clearly that the aftermath is sufacing...but i gave myself the reason to not regret.
the reason is simply euu.
but now. i cant think. i cant see. i cant hear.
coz i aint suppose to.
haix. i cant hlp thinkin bout that thing again. i saw her and simply ignored her while she ignored me as well. ppl sae friendship w/o qurrallin n stuff aint a true friendship. but apprently mine jin bu qi kao yan. it fell. it fell. it fell. just liddat. i put in mi heart n wrote the word 'friendship' on the sand. the waves brought it into the sea. i wrote it again. the wind carried it away. i wrote it once more but u kick sand over it. n cover those words. haix. i aint suppose to care. coz it is onli making mi feel miserable. mayb i was wron. mayb i just blew up the entire matter. mayb there wasnt even any matter. mayb i m an idiot. mayb everything was started by me, as well as ended by me. mayb i m realli an idiot.
i duno whether i m regretting wadeva i did but i reali dun noe. its like. sumthin that meant a lot to you. just disappear. just like tat. or mayb the 'mean a lot thing' ish just my own wishful thinking. mayb i aint anithing. i m nth. nth. i dun wanna think bout this.but i juz cant gett it off mi head. especially ofter hearing wad they said. mayb its all mi fault that i got too petty n didnt cherish it. ya... mayb it is reali mi fault.
i hate myself fer being so pathetic. cant even let go of smth that hurt me terriblily. why. why. why. i m weak. weak. weak. haix.
dots. dun wana tok but tat le. depressin.
hmm. read i nice short story by zhang man juan. beri ns. then there is this paragraph. here is wad it says: < ai zhe yi ge ren de shi hou, wo men chao chu xiang xiang de yong gan, ye chao chu xiang xiang de cui ruo. ta de yi yan yi yu yi xiao du qian dong zhe wo men de qing xu. yin wei xiang jian wo men he deng de kai xin; yin wei li bie wo men sheng shang tong chu.
hmm..okie. things got betta n now i feel beri guilty fer saying stuff liddat. i have no idea wad i m doing now. dun ask mi. i m just leading life like anioe else does. step by step. zhou yi bu kan yi bu. no goals.wad so eva. haix. n i hate it.
holidae every single dae muz go back to skool..frm 8am to like 3 pm. haix. tired. i nid a break. to sort out mi tots. i duno whether this is stress or wad la. but... i dun hab ani other options le. take this as a part of life. everyone have to go through dis. =)
ok. so i made a deal. i will hab to study hard fer mi end year coz i've already promise mi parents. so..i promise to work reali hard n put in enough in mi work n give mi very best. i m gonna prove them wron. show them that i aint deteriorating because of other stuff.. hmm.. i can do it de. jia you! n i noe u oso can de.believe in yaself as much as i believe in you. ukamcs!
okie. so todae i went to study n do mi maths trigo . nth special happen. juz tat i met a farni guy at mac. i order le then he stared at mi fer like 5 seconds and then sae "huh?" errrrrrrr..... lolx. at bit erm. haha. he like so blur de lo. mayb his first dae ba. lolx. then got one extremely tall guy walking about in mac saying " mac spicy double! mac spicy double!" lolx. he walk pass me then got shadow cover mi worksheet lo..haha. kovan reali got so many diff characters lo. haha. then is like juz mac. haha. farni dae.
hmm. this are the neos i took wib mi pri skool friends.. 6-10`02 rox!!!
top left corner..left to right
jon.michelle.mohandass.me.huijie.angeline.liyan.joey.chinkiong.jerome.jeremy.
31-o8-o5
top right corner..right to left
mohandass.me.liyan.angeline.michelle.huijie.jeremy.jerome.chinkiong.joey
31-o8-o5
hmm..kkz. great~! tml ish the start of the hols n i have to be skool by 8am. lolx. lessons...yawn.
the race is begining. fasten ya seat belts. n get ready.
hmm. ytd mi n mi pri skool ppl went to mi teacher's hse..we did the sphere puzzle fer her. haa.did it fer like 4 hours. the dae b4 n ytd. beri nice lo. got lots of man zhu gan! gee =) ya. n at there we realli enjoyed ourselves lotss! mrs tan was nice. n we all really had a GREAT tok. duno drink how many zillion cans of coke n eat many durain puff. beri nic. haha. haha. then we osoo go take the neos n walk walk at kovan lo. then dey went to plae basketball at the cc n i went hm lo. coz mi parents wan mi to be home by 3 ma.
then got the superstar n....disappointed lo. haix.
then smth SHIT happen!! u noe wad. bloody hell. i scolded mi sista fer smth then she said smth bout mi n him n mi father was like"WHAT?" i diam n go slp. dun care. then dey fight n quarral till beri xiong. then mi mum cum mi rm n scold me sae ITS ALL MY FAULT........haix..haix..then dis morning mi father neber tok to mi at all lo. he ignored me. i duno y. i mean its like there is onli one reason but i m pray tat aint the reason lo..i believe wad mi sista said...haix. wad if he realli noe... then wads gonna happen? wad if he dun accpet n transfer me off to sum bloody place? nonononononnonono!!!! i reali reeli beri beri scared. i dun wanna **** ***.haix.niyijinchenweiwoshenmingdeyibufen.wobunenggoumeiyouni.ruoshiquleniwoyaozhenmehuo.yongyuandenefenzhizuo.je t'aime
kkz. todae went to bugis wib xyzz to meet cynth. we all go take the neos. lolx. haha. then met him n went to national library. n go makan n home. dots. boring dae! haha
but ar. i tml got e maths test nehz! trigo. study half half lo. haha. sian. i m slacking off.......
thinking bout smth. smth i dun dare to think. wad if. wad if. wad if. this very one dae. they saw us.. together... with.......... wad is gonna happen. i dun daaaare to think. will they kill me. or kick me out of da house. or tok to mi no more coz i lied to them. or shud i simply tell them now...? will there be a difference? hai. i realli wanna continue. i m very happy dis wae. i havent been so happy before. but but but but....mayb neng man duo jiu jiu man duo jiu lo.... hai.
i dun wanna lie. it makes mi feel guilty n make me wanna cry. gimme one more year. i m gonna make this clear. they will accept us de. trust me. sorri.
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A-T- L-A-S-T-!
the exams are finally over...=) can relax le..lolx..
sumthin weird happen on mi wae home todae.
i was thinking bout smth.
then afternoon went out with rach and datou to plaze sing.. met so many ppl lo..haha..went to carrefour to buy pizza to eat...then we saw ren yao lo... scary like siao..lucky i back facing them..lolx..aftertat we go take neos~! =)
reach hm at bout juz b4 8 to watch the war and beauty..beri beri nice..haha..reaching climax lo..
other shit stuff happen...my head is hurtin like siao..gonna die le..but who the hell give a damm...
promises are signifies the lost of faith.
when faith is present..there is no nid fer a promise or a vow.
even when a promise is broken..it doesnt signify anithing..coz in the first place, the faith is already gone.
promises are signifies the lost of faith.
i m tired. the exams are cumming....it like two more wks. and my results realli suck like hell lo. bloody shit. mi whole clz ish like doing so damm well. yarh. whole clz except me. mayb i m suppose to put in more effort as things are no longer like the past..everi one else is striving hard.working so hard. n here i m. slacking about. but seriously. u cant help feeling shitty went you get back a seriously 21.5/40 when everione else is scoring 30+. i barely pass lo. b-a-r-e-l-y p-a-s-s....wtf.
n todae recieve the exam time table. then we were like " lets highlight the papers we taking!" n GUESS WAD? the entire paper was high lighted. G-R-E-A-T...
n so many stuff happen lo. my head hurts. i m dyin awae. i m so tired. seriously too tired to think.
lol.
who cares aniwae...
u promise me le.
im so mad at myself for not being mad at you.
others kip tellin me your are wron.
n i myself noe it.
but i juz kip siding you.
kip letting you do all these stuff.
each time i prepare a whole lot of stuff to scold u about.
but when i tok to u i juz cant sae those words.
why. wad the hell m i doing..
i m gonna hai si ni.
when will u eva change.
dun juz sae.
actions speak louder than words.
i will hold on to my belief.
but plz.
plz dun let mi down.
plz.
plz.
plz.
coz i care. i still lurve you. even when i aint suppose to.
attlast..! gonna finish the china video le! left the sound n DDDAADDDA~! lolx. haha. man zhu gan~!
lloootas thnx toooo rach n da tou =))
kk. chunqiudameng.i got the li gan le! muahahahaa~! i swear im gonna do this man! ursh~!
ren lei yin wei meng xiang er wei da. mei you meng xiang de ren sheng shi kong xu de.
hmm. gotta find mi destination. wad i reali want.. but sumtimes. its reali nt up to mi to decide ATALL...unless i wana be burenbuyibuxiaobuzhong..tiandaleipibudehaoshi lo.. dots. haix. i have no options. wad dey want me to do muz be rite. muz. so. let mi juz walk to road they path fer me. got i m not mature enuff to see which wae ish betta. i m too young. even after the os i m still too young..
havvda agree. 16 aint 20 but. cant i like try. just try.
although in the first place. i knew very clearly wad i m gonna face in the end. but i gave myself a reason to start.
then when terrible things start happening. i knew very clearly that the ending is gonna be 10 times worst...but i gave myself the reason to continue.
and at last. things finnaly turn bitter when ppl broke the broken hearts. i knew very clearly that the aftermath is sufacing...but i gave myself the reason to not regret.
the reason is simply euu.
but now. i cant think. i cant see. i cant hear.
coz i aint suppose to.
haix. i cant hlp thinkin bout that thing again. i saw her and simply ignored her while she ignored me as well. ppl sae friendship w/o qurrallin n stuff aint a true friendship. but apprently mine jin bu qi kao yan. it fell. it fell. it fell. just liddat. i put in mi heart n wrote the word 'friendship' on the sand. the waves brought it into the sea. i wrote it again. the wind carried it away. i wrote it once more but u kick sand over it. n cover those words. haix. i aint suppose to care. coz it is onli making mi feel miserable. mayb i was wron. mayb i just blew up the entire matter. mayb there wasnt even any matter. mayb i m an idiot. mayb everything was started by me, as well as ended by me. mayb i m realli an idiot.
i duno whether i m regretting wadeva i did but i reali dun noe. its like. sumthin that meant a lot to you. just disappear. just like tat. or mayb the 'mean a lot thing' ish just my own wishful thinking. mayb i aint anithing. i m nth. nth. i dun wanna think bout this.but i juz cant gett it off mi head. especially ofter hearing wad they said. mayb its all mi fault that i got too petty n didnt cherish it. ya... mayb it is reali mi fault.
i hate myself fer being so pathetic. cant even let go of smth that hurt me terriblily. why. why. why. i m weak. weak. weak. haix.
dots. dun wana tok but tat le. depressin.
hmm. read i nice short story by zhang man juan. beri ns. then there is this paragraph. here is wad it says: < ai zhe yi ge ren de shi hou, wo men chao chu xiang xiang de yong gan, ye chao chu xiang xiang de cui ruo. ta de yi yan yi yu yi xiao du qian dong zhe wo men de qing xu. yin wei xiang jian wo men he deng de kai xin; yin wei li bie wo men sheng shang tong chu.
hmm..okie. things got betta n now i feel beri guilty fer saying stuff liddat. i have no idea wad i m doing now. dun ask mi. i m just leading life like anioe else does. step by step. zhou yi bu kan yi bu. no goals.wad so eva. haix. n i hate it.
holidae every single dae muz go back to skool..frm 8am to like 3 pm. haix. tired. i nid a break. to sort out mi tots. i duno whether this is stress or wad la. but... i dun hab ani other options le. take this as a part of life. everyone have to go through dis. =)
ok. so i made a deal. i will hab to study hard fer mi end year coz i've already promise mi parents. so..i promise to work reali hard n put in enough in mi work n give mi very best. i m gonna prove them wron. show them that i aint deteriorating because of other stuff.. hmm.. i can do it de. jia you! n i noe u oso can de.believe in yaself as much as i believe in you. ukamcs!
okie. so todae i went to study n do mi maths trigo . nth special happen. juz tat i met a farni guy at mac. i order le then he stared at mi fer like 5 seconds and then sae "huh?" errrrrrrr..... lolx. at bit erm. haha. he like so blur de lo. mayb his first dae ba. lolx. then got one extremely tall guy walking about in mac saying " mac spicy double! mac spicy double!" lolx. he walk pass me then got shadow cover mi worksheet lo..haha. kovan reali got so many diff characters lo. haha. then is like juz mac. haha. farni dae.
hmm. this are the neos i took wib mi pri skool friends.. 6-10`02 rox!!!
top left corner..left to right
jon.michelle.mohandass.me.huijie.angeline.liyan.joey.chinkiong.jerome.jeremy.
31-o8-o5
top right corner..right to left
mohandass.me.liyan.angeline.michelle.huijie.jeremy.jerome.chinkiong.joey
31-o8-o5
hmm..kkz. great~! tml ish the start of the hols n i have to be skool by 8am. lolx. lessons...yawn.
the race is begining. fasten ya seat belts. n get ready.
hmm. ytd mi n mi pri skool ppl went to mi teacher's hse..we did the sphere puzzle fer her. haa.did it fer like 4 hours. the dae b4 n ytd. beri nice lo. got lots of man zhu gan! gee =) ya. n at there we realli enjoyed ourselves lotss! mrs tan was nice. n we all really had a GREAT tok. duno drink how many zillion cans of coke n eat many durain puff. beri nic. haha. haha. then we osoo go take the neos n walk walk at kovan lo. then dey went to plae basketball at the cc n i went hm lo. coz mi parents wan mi to be home by 3 ma.
then got the superstar n....disappointed lo. haix.
then smth SHIT happen!! u noe wad. bloody hell. i scolded mi sista fer smth then she said smth bout mi n him n mi father was like"WHAT?" i diam n go slp. dun care. then dey fight n quarral till beri xiong. then mi mum cum mi rm n scold me sae ITS ALL MY FAULT........haix..haix..then dis morning mi father neber tok to mi at all lo. he ignored me. i duno y. i mean its like there is onli one reason but i m pray tat aint the reason lo..i believe wad mi sista said...haix. wad if he realli noe... then wads gonna happen? wad if he dun accpet n transfer me off to sum bloody place? nonononononnonono!!!! i reali reeli beri beri scared. i dun wanna **** ***.haix.niyijinchenweiwoshenmingdeyibufen.wobunenggoumeiyouni.ruoshiquleniwoyaozhenmehuo.yongyuandenefenzhizuo.je t'aime
kkz. todae went to bugis wib xyzz to meet cynth. we all go take the neos. lolx. haha. then met him n went to national library. n go makan n home. dots. boring dae! haha
but ar. i tml got e maths test nehz! trigo. study half half lo. haha. sian. i m slacking off.......
thinking bout smth. smth i dun dare to think. wad if. wad if. wad if. this very one dae. they saw us.. together... with.......... wad is gonna happen. i dun daaaare to think. will they kill me. or kick me out of da house. or tok to mi no more coz i lied to them. or shud i simply tell them now...? will there be a difference? hai. i realli wanna continue. i m very happy dis wae. i havent been so happy before. but but but but....mayb neng man duo jiu jiu man duo jiu lo.... hai.
i dun wanna lie. it makes mi feel guilty n make me wanna cry. gimme one more year. i m gonna make this clear. they will accept us de. trust me. sorri.